Haven't I played this song like a million times already, or it is played to me.

Well here I go again, haven't written on here for awhile.  As always, just need to get stuff off my mind.

Again, I'm seeing another girl.  Does this surprise you?  Probably not.  But anyway.......seems like again I am putting effort into seeing her, talking to her, etc, yet she seems to not really care or wants to try.  We've had two date days planned, and both she has blown me off.  Normally for family reasons, but this is getting too routine.

Then I try to talk to her, not even very much, just once or twice a day; and not even very long.  She always responds, but it just feels like I'm pulling teeth whenever I try talking to her.  We've hung out a few times and we always have a great time and flirt and never a loss of words.  It just seems like she doesn't even really care if we try for something or not.

I think I am just tired of trying with a girl I do have a chance with, then getting nothing.  Should I try nothing?  But if I do that whoever the girl is isn't going to try anyway.  So then it would just be two people not trying....eventually leading to nothing, obviously.

So I just sent her a text basically telling her how I feel about the situation, and i'll probably get some three word response that will probably end anything I had with her.  Awesome.  Oh she responded, let's go look at the disappointment.......

Ugh, whatever.  I don't know what to think about this right now.  This is a really confusing texting conversation and am just not sure what to think about it.  But I have gotten more out of her in these past two texts than I probably have in all our non face to face conversations combined.

Oh well, I'm sure I'll keep you updated.  Let's hope for the best, since I always seem to get screwed in situations like this.  Awesome.

Have fun, don't do drugs, don't accept less than what you deserve, and good things will come to you.

Currently As Cruel as School Children By Gym Class Heroes see related

My Birthday!

So it's my birthday....and I don't think anyone really gives a shit.  Not even my best friends have wished me a happy birthday.  wtf.

Have fun, don't do drugs, wish me a happy birthday, and good things will come to you.

Oh yeah, I'm 20.  Go me!

Currently Hot Fuss By The Killers see related

Summer countdown: 19 Days!

Wow, I have not written in foreeeever.  Or at least it seems that way.  I've just been busy and not really thinking about it too much.  That and just my general lack of motivation about everything that has come upon me in the last month or so.

Women are stupid and annoying and just way too fucking blind.  Glad I gave up on Deb when I did.  I'm sorry, but she truly is one of the stupider people in this world I have ever met.  And more like ditzy stupid.  Though for some reason I still like being friends with her and hangin' out and what not.  She not completley stupid and annoying, but she is a lot of fun.  More fun than most of my friends, which is probably why I had a small crush on her.  But whatever.  Looking at facebook stuff it looks like she is into some Travis kid.  I'm assuming total douche bag, it's pretty much a given if she is into him.  Whatever.  Why do I care?  I don't know, I don't think I actually do, I just want to rant about something and women piss me off enough to do so.

I shouldn't even worry too much about girls though.  It's too late in the school year to care, and summer is about to start.  Beautiful women in bikinis, summer is such a wonderful season.  If I can actually get with any of those beautiful women in bikinis is another thing all in itself, but I can dream.  Lol.

Actually the start of summer is setting in motion two more important events in my year.  1) golf, since I have not played since fall.  And 2) more tennis.  Since I don't get to play as much here at school as I want to and plus Emily is back home to play with.  And no offense to my tennis buddies up here....Emily is just more fun to play with most of the time than anyone else.

I have to take fucking pre calculus this summer at Miami Hamilton, like a loser.  I really don't want to take summer courses, but I kind of need to since I'm behind in my major due to the change I made last semester.  Lifeguarding shouldn't be thaaaatt bad as long as there are fun people to work with.  I am looking forward to seeing all my lifeguard friends, just not the actual work.  Lame as fuck.

I really want to do something fun tonight.  I really do, I just don't know what.  No one is going to wanna do anything with, so I'll just be sitting around.  I want to do something outside, because I can't stand being inside too long.  Or at least go somewhere off of campus.  Three weeks left of school and I'm just tired of staring at campus.

I really just need something amazingly awesome to happen in my life this next week.  I need it, but unfortunatly it probably won't happen. 

Well work is just about over.  I'll catch ya where the grass is always greener.

Have fun, don't do drugs, fuck bitches, and good things will come to you.

Currently Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist By Michael Cera, Kat Dennings, Aaron Yoo, Rafi Gavron, Ari Graynor see related

I'm probably not a big enough douche bag

Sooooo........that one girl who has kept ditching me/blowing me off lately, well she texted me yesterday and asked if I would go work out with her.  I was kind of skeptical, but why not.

Well we worked out and I got her to run a mile, even though it was a very pathetic mile.  Then she got me to work on my abs, since I never work on my abs and they're pretty sad.  So since I started working on them  I am going to keep it up.  Have to get ready for sexy sexy lifeguard season.  Then to end it all we just rode the bikes for like 20 minutes.

Then we went to the dial, got ice cream and just hung out for a bit.

So status on me and her, if you can call it that.  She seems like the type of person who even if she was attracted to me and such would not go out with me, and it is very possible she could become attracted to me.  She wouldn't let herself go out with a guy like me.  I don't know why I feel that, but that is just what it seems.  She seemed to be having a great time with me, but I doubt she would ever go out with me.  I could get a girl like her, I'm not doubting my lady gettin' abilities, but she won't let herself.  I'm probably not a big enough douche bag, that really wouldn't surprise me.  Oh well, I'm not going to sacrafice my dignity to become a douche bag and get this girl to go out with me.  Not worth it.  She fun as friends though and she'll come work out with me.

So I finally found a good song lyric that describes shit that I go through all the time it seems.  It's from Motion City Soundtrack's song Point of Extinction.

"I'm so tired, I've had enough.
If there's one thing I've learned
You'll always get burned
But you'll never give it up."

When it comes to my shitty relationship life I am tired, I've had enough of all the shit these girls keep putting me through.  But as I have learned I'm not going to give it up, no matter how often I get burned by these girls.  I am too persistant or I just want myself to be happy, or something of the sort.  I have been single for over 4 months....this is the longest I've gone without a gf since my junior year of high school.  It's slightly depressing.

Ugh.  Fuck my life.  Being nice gets you no where.  It's the douche bags that have everything.

Oh yeah, and the movie Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist is amazing.

Have fun, don't do drugs, watch Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist, and good things will come to you.

Easter Lunchable!!

Well, as I told you before I was supposed to go work out with this girl who asked me to work out with her tonight, and as I stated I was skeptical.

As expected, I got a text from her today stating that she is busy and can no long accompany me to the rec, so have fun by yourself, etc.  I was never really expecting her to hang out with me tonight.  The one time we did hang out, she bugged out early on me.  And we had planned to get together another a few more times, but she backed out of all those opportunities as well.  Whatever, at this point I really don't care.

So its Wednesday night, almost Thursday, which means it is just about to be Friday, meaning the weekend is right around the bend.  Though it's going to be a lame weekend since it's Easter weekend and no one is going to be here.  I am filming my literature project with my friends this weekend, so that'll fill some time.

Though Easter dinner......it will probably include random items bought from temptations.  So like some mac n' cheese along with a pizza lunchable, and end it all with popcorn.  Yes!!  Doesn't that sound awesome?  NOT!!!  Another lame Easter spent at school.  I would go home, but since I'm just going home the next weekend I don't see a real point in wasting all that time driving.

I kind of need to stay here this weekend though cause when my mother does come to pick me up she is taking my futon and a bunch of other stuff home as well.  If I went home with Kate this weekend I would not be able to take my futon and bunches of other stuff home, so it would just wind up being more of a hastle.

And I'm tired of rejection.  I won't let it show, nor will I ever really tell anyone, since I'm pretty much used to it by now.  But still, girls are terrible.  Girls, stop going out with douche bags!!

Have fun, don't do drugs, stop going out with douche bags, and good things will come to you.